As I mentioned previously, I have been wanting a tattoo for a long time. But, of course, I’m a weird, complex kind of guy, so I wasn’t satisfied with just picking out a design and getting it done. Nope. Too easy. What I wanted was to have my wife pick out a tattoo for me and have me get that design tattooed on me. Whatever she wanted. I wanted this to be — as well as a cool tattoo that we both liked and wanted to look at — a voluntary gift of my submission to her, a sign of my trust in her and her control of me. For me, having her select what tattoo I would get was both a gift from me to her as well as a symbol of my devotion to her. For me, there are few greater signs of devotion than allowing someone else to control your very appearance and body. I guess that’s why, for me, body modification writ large is a part of what I consider to be my interest in BDSM. If that makes any sense to anyone outside my own head.
l I had initially wanted it to be a complete and total surprise until I walked into the tattoo parlor, but reality and saner heads — along with a burning sense of curiosity prevailed and I asked her what design she had picked out. After keeping me on ins and needles for a long time (I’m not sure that she had even picked it out for a long time), while she allowed me to masturbate for her, she told me what the design would be. She decided that I would bear the mark from The Story of O that has come to be linked more broadly with BDSM on the upper portion of my right bicep connected with a tribal band that will completely encircle my arm. When she described what the design of my tattoo was going to be, and traced it with her fingernail on the top part of my right bicep, I almost came then and there, it was so deeply erotic to me. This is still a very powerful moment for me.
Perhaps it shouldn’t have been a surprise, but the design was entirely unexpected to me and I had no idea what she would come up with. Her idea was absolutely perfect from my perspective: something she came up with herself; a design that is very aesthetically pleasing and sexy as hell; a design that is deeply symbolic of BDSM as well; and also a design that will be a secret between she and I. Other people who see it will simply think it’s a general tribal kind of design and it works on that level, but she and I will know that it also has deeper meaning. So it’s even cooler for all that.
We never got a chance to get it done before she went to Europe last year, but I really think it’s going to happen when she gets back in August. We spoke again about it last week and I asked if she had given any more thought to the tribal design that will make up the band that will encircle my bicep and become the rest of the tattoo. She said that she hasn’t, but then she suggested that we come up with a tribal design together. I think that’s a great idea, and I will propose some ideas on that to her. My initial reaction is that I really liked some of the Hawaiian tribal designs we saw when we were in Hawaii a few years ago, so maybe I will propose something like that if I can find a few that I like. But I do, of course, ultimately want her to pick the tribal design that she likes best, because for me, that’s a really important part of this tattoo and he reason why I want it.
So here’s what I envision the main part of the design looking like.
(Note to my wife: if this isn’t the design you were thinking of, please let me know!)
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